Today we had a meeting for the people staying abroad for the academic year to discuss next semester's courses, housing situation, etc. It hit me. A year is a long, long time, and it is not even halfway over. It makes me miss my friends so much. It makes me miss even those little moments or random summer nights with my family. It was, admittedly, a hard afternoon. Especially hard because I realized that there is about a week in January after my family leaves when my friends are not here yet. OK, I thought, it might be nice to stay here with the friends I have made (few) from the city of Toledo itself and volunteer or something? But that puts me in a hostel, by myself, for a week. Planning this kind of thing makes me so stressed out I physically felt sick. I later talked with my friend Flannery, who is also staying for the year, and learned that she was in the same situation. I can honestly say I have never been so relieved and overjoyed since I have been here. We decided on a little Germany, Austria and maybe Prague.
Seriously, I love traveling and experiencing new things but I am not at the place yet to do it by myself. I hope to be there someday, because it does sound like a kind of cool idea. I also need to get a little perspective and stop being sad at the fact that instead of being a complete bum over break, I will be in Switzerland, Italy, Germany and Austria. God, poor me.
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Go to Prague, my love - it's breath-taking. It's the city to fall in love. Especially, I imagine, in the winter.
I can't wait to see you next semester. I'm starting to really get nervous and sad about leaving all my friends who will be graduating, and realizing that I really don't know anyone in my Ireland group. I'm starting to get that rebellious "There's nothing wrong with my friends NOW, why do I have to go across an ocean and make new ones?" attitude.
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