Little Miss Know-It-All

Believe it or not, I have never felt comfortable being the One with All the Answers. I never have had all the answers. On the contrary, as of recent, I was not even the one who asked the questions. I was the one who, either out of sheer laziness or out of utter confusion, would wait for others to take the initiative to figure things out. This seemed to be the case when I first arrived in Spain and had no idea what was going on in any of my classes. I spoke Spanish then about as well as I speak German now (badly.) When people would talk about certain assignments, I would realize what an idiot I was and do the work I learned was assigned. Currently, however, I seem to be the one people look to for answers. Sure, I have been here a year. Sure, I get the language now. But it's almost comical. I am so used to putting on this front of confidence that now that people actually think I know what's going on it's almost as if I have convinced myself that I do. Mentality is everything.

We had our first day of classes today. The bad part about understanding the language so much better is that spacing out in class is way easier because you can snap back into it at any given moment. I knew that things would be a little slower at first this semester, but I really have to try to apply myself a lot. It really is easy to get straight A's here and I might as well just do it. Now I do not have philosophy (hates it) as an excuse not to be enthused about all my classes I suppose. 

I am realizing how much I am beginning to appreciate all little things here as well as laugh at the things that I used to loathe. I was running on this street by the river yesterday and as a car chugging behind me started to further slow down, I thought, you've got to be kidding me. I sped up and the guy in the car just smiled, held out a beer and said "Tienes sed?" (are you thirsty?) I tried to be annoyed, but all I could do was laugh.